Life after Ghana (chapter 6) Last chapt.
Now we are on to new territory which is my life after I got back from Ghana. The person who picked me up at the Hilo airport was the man who rented my apt for the month I was gone. I was very grateful for that for he took a small burden off my mind and I knew that at least my house rent would be covered for Feb. However, on the way back to my house he wanted to talk about some of the people that was suppose to help at the store and didn’t. I let him talk for a few minutes then said in a very tired voice that I didn’t want to her what he had to say for I understood already that the store was closed and I would have to work harder to make up for all the losses I had. I added their was nothing I could do about it now and lets talk about something else. So he did. He went on to talk about the healing class that cost him $1800 for a one week course. And about getting another healing by some remarkable man who would charge him only $200 for the healing. He thought it was a good bargain. My mind was thinking how absurd to pay all that money for a healing class. My sarcastic voice said in my head how nice to be back in Hawaii where everything now has a price to it. There must be something wrong with me…I just spent a month in Africa doing healing service work with no money attached to what I did at all. This conversation just seemed so bizarre to me and I just pretended to be asleep so the conversation ended.
After we got back to the house I asked the man who was renting my apt. if he found another place to live. He didn’t so I asked him if he wanted to rent my bedroom for one more month. If he said yes this would cover my house rent and I can cross that one off my need to pay list. It was only one month…I can do this. I spent the next few hours unpacking and reclaiming my apt.
My car is also not working and I asked my new roommate if he was going to town the next morning and if I could have a ride.
My landlord waited till my store was empty of customers to let me know my rent check bounced…twice..And gave me a payment plan to catch up. All done within the month. He told me to make a decision on what I was going to do and he would be by the next day for my answer. Ahh yes..it is good to be back home. It was clear he was not happy and I told him I really didn’t know this happened.
I was very blessed for a friend of mine asked me to do 5 soul retrievals on her animals and payed me ahead of time for them. When I went to put the money thru the credit card machine I saw there were 6 other credits that were never sent though so I could get payed. Then I found all the cash that was just sitting in the back. No wonder my rent check bounced for no one put the money in the bank….wow. I was pleased it was there yet dumfounded as to why it just sat there. No wonder my landlord was a bit angry…on the other hand I have been renting from him for over 4 years and have not had one check bounce. This was my first time and happening while I was out of country. The great miracle in all this was I had my store rent in 2 days. I gave my landlord 2 months rent and cleared up that debt. I did explain how no one walked the money across the street to the bank. He wasn’t happy with me and I just focused on my store.
So much for being able to take time off for getting over jet lag. I was ok with this and kept up a good attitude. I had a Lot of energy in the morning and around 5 to 6 PM my body would just turn off and I would make myself rest. That would become my life for the next 3 weeks. I would save all my energy for work and do as little as I could when I got home. Then again my car wasn’t working so I didn’t have a desire to go anywhere unless I really had too.
I thought I was taking it all in stride until I found all the money not put in the bank. I could not help express myself to the man who was supposed to do this for me as to why it wasn’t done. I am allowed a human moment every now and then. He went outside and quietly left the apt. complex with out answering me. The first words that came to my mind were coward. He just could not face me for his lack of commitment. Oh yes he is also the one I told I was not in love with. He was also responsible for watching my car. When I went to get my car I also found out that it had an extra 250 miles on it. It should not have been driven at all in its condition. He could not look at me when I went to pick up the car.
I was doing ok with getting to work that week for my roommate had a class in Hilo and he was car pooling. I got to drive his car to work. That Friday at the end of the day I started to hear some God-awful drumming that was coming from down the hall and right into my store. With my shot nerves I just could not take the drumming lessons that were now a part of the music school next door. I can handle the bad piano playing…the off key flutes..i was not prepared for drumming. My landlord’s stepson is an exceptional drummer and was now giving drumming lessons. No one mentioned this to me…Surprise. I went to where the drumming was coming from and asked if it could stop for I just got back from Africa and still on jet lag. I also mentioned that I would go crazy if it kept going..Frayed nerves and all. I was so grateful that the drumming stopped.
I got my ailing car back that weekend and all the warning sensors were on. I prayed it back the 12 miles back to my house. I had the part number so I went on line to see if I could find a new or used part. Let me tell you that was pretty frustrating for I am not a car geek and the dealer gave me the wrong part number. And there were no categories for invertors..This is the part I needed. I kept looking on line and found a used part for $495 delivered. I would worry about who would fix it after I got the car part ordered. One step at a time. That way I would not get overwhelmed with the totality of what I needed to do. And gave me time to save up the money I needed for the repair shop.
I didn’t mind the hitch hiking. I was not going to depend on anyone for a ride. It was so much easier that way. I only needed one safe ride in to town…a short 7 mile journey and 7 miles back. I have lived here for 4 years and I know I am not social but someone would know me and stop and give me a ride. I have hitch hiked across country in my younger years so I was not concerned on how to manifest rides. It gave me a new perspective on life with out a car..And I had to manifest sunshine so I wasn’t rained on. I took it all in stride for I wasn’t going to drive my car unless it was going to the garage to be repaired. A little wearing on the mind and body but doable.
I made it clear to my roommate who loved to talk that if he wanted to talk to catch me at my store. After 5 I am not social and wanted some quite time so I could recharge. He stayed in his room a lot after that which worked just great for me.
I was getting a lot of business in the store and I was getting caught up in my bills. I had worked 2 weeks straight….working right through the jet lag. Again on Friday the drumming started. I went back and asked if it was possible to have the drumming lessons after I closed the store at 5 or before I opened my store at 10; 30. The reply was no and he felt I was being intolerant. Then my landlord came to join in the conversation and started to yell at me that no matter what was said nothing would change. I calmly asked him why he was yelling at me. As he walked away he told his stepson and I to work it out..Then added that it didn’t matter for nothing would change. I felt like I was hit in the gut. I looked at his stepson and said maybe I was a little intolerant for I did just get back from Africa and I was still getting over jet lag. I have only been renting there for 4 years and a heads up about the drumming lessons would have been nice. If someone would have told me about the drumming I could work around it then. If it was too bad I could just close early. I went back to my store and started to send out lots of love to help my landlord calm down.
As I closed my store for the night I walked by my competitions store down the street who was closing down for lack of business. She told me my landlord asked her to come and rent from him for he had a store front opening. He was offering her my store front. She declined.
This was the last challenge I thought I would have before me…landlord wanting to replace me.
Then I got a registered letter in the mail. Normally I would not take something that was registered. This was from my landlord. It was sent out Feb 22, letting me know the rent bounced and I had 15 days to pay up or get out. I did have that corrected by paying my rent in full. The totality of it all was very overwhelming for me and I started to overload.
I wrote to Prem Baba and asked for help.
This is the letter I wrote to Prem baba that night…
“ well i am starting to overload. How is that for being direct and too the point. I think i handled my car breaking down before I left and the dealer telling me it would cost $6,000 to fix. for I didn’t need the car in Africa. I think i made the right decision before I left in not paying my sales tax to the state, which was /is $640. if I did I would have had no money to go to Africa. I left with $678 dollars in my pocket.
I put my full attention on the task before me and it was pretty wonderful. It was very nice to be able to just focus on healing and spirit for the month.
I thought I handled it pretty well when the day before I arrived in Hawaii I learned that my store was closed for most of the month so none of my bills for that month were payed. No problem I said to self it just looks like I have to work harder.
I thought I was ok when I had to go to work the next day…no jet lag time off for me. And been working everyday since.
I was ok when my landlord told me my rent ck bounced …twice. and gave me some ultimatums to pay it back. I must admit I did loose it a bit when I found out that there was some money made..And I was very grateful…until I saw that no one took the cash and walked it across the street to my bank and put it in. I worked thru that.
I was able to pay the rent before the due date.
I thought that was taken care of.. I was even ok..a bit disappointing that my landlord on Feb. 22 sent me a pay up the rent in 15 days or you are out eviction notice. I let that pass for he mailed it before I came home and payed him so that was null and void.
I don’t even mind the hitch hiking I have to do until my car is fixed..And I am delighted to say that spirit helped me find the car part i needed for only $495 delivered..And I have it coming to Hawaii..Then the labor will only cost $450…or less..Way under the $6,000 original price. I am meeting new friends and being way more social.
I thought i was working threw and helping my daughter and my friends that think I have special prayer powers now. Every one has them..Right. ?
I guess i should have asked you to help me hold the earth keeper energy for when it is left alone the dark forces come in.
and my crystal was left alone for most of the month..ahh hind site. Next time I will for sure ask.
Now my landlord for some bizarre reason is very unhappy with me and is looking for a reason to kick me out.
He yelled at me today because I asked his stepson..Who is now teaching drumming lessons if they can be taught after my store is closed and I am gone. .He yelled that it was going on no matter what I wanted. I just asked him very calmly why he was yelling at me. And it would have been nice to give me a heads up so I could have prepared better. I am still in jet lag and a little on edge to the sound of drums vibrating down the hall into my store.
I am titling just a little. Why he is acting this way I am very puzzled for I have been there for over 4 yrs and I thought a pretty good and quiet tenant. I also found out he was trying to find someone to replace me while i was gone.
This does not give me warm fuzzes.
I need help either raising his energy to where he is again comfortable with me or lowering the crystal energy to where he is comfortable with me. I am not in a position to move nor is there much to move to in town.
I need help I know God thinks a lot of me and we are not given more than we can handle..Well I am now tilting and am truly overloading. I know I don’t look it but I am going on 57. And yes my energy far surpasses most people on earth and I am not that young chicky anymore.
I am wearing down.
I won’t be any use to the Divine if I don’t get some kind of plateau to rest and recoup on.
I put it all in your and Sai Baba’s hands and going to bed now so I stop thinking.
Then a few hours later I wrote Prem Baba again
I forgot to tell you my heart hurts and I think that is a big reason I am writing to you to night.
I am sure it will all pass. I don’t like it when I have these human moments. And I am having one now.
Am I flunking my tests?
I need a Divine recharge.”
I was not capable of doing anything at that point. Then my good friend reminded me that I was in a bit of shock since I got back…oh how true that was. I realized that I was in a much higher vibration in Africa than I was now surrounded in Hawaii. She also reminded me that for the last month I was in a totally different culture and it will take at least 21 days for me to readjust to Hawaii. I was also concerned for my heart started to hurt. Oh those human moments we have. The next couple of days my landlord had a hard time coming near the building which gave me a little bit of comfort. I also kept blasting him with divine love, keeping a smile on my face all the while.
The next day was Sunday and I was home after working the store just lying on the couch because I was so burned out. I wasn’t able to do anything else. As I layed there I could feel this warm energy come in to my heart. It just kept getting hotter and hotter. I knew Prem Baba was sending me the energy I needed….and the Divine Recharge I asked for. Tears started to come out of my eyes….I was so grateful to receive the energy. I was grateful that Prem Baba gives me this wonderful attention. I would only let a few tears come out for I also knew that too much crying would have not been good for my body. I just soaked up all that High energy that was being sent to me and as it came into my heart chakra the discomfort in my heart calmed down.
I wrote Prem Baba a few days later………………….
My Dear Prembaba;
Thank you for all the energy you have sent me. My dear girlfriend pointed out to me that I was in a bit of shock and slight trauma since I have been back. I already explained why. I took some rescue remedy and did some radionics to help me pull back in body and calm down. It worked and I poured some on the large crystals for if I was in trauma I can imagine the crystal feeling the same after being in the dark for most of the month and not worked with.
The energy you sent to my heart was very welcomed and it calmed down a lot. It aches just a little now and not very often.
I started the day watching whales play and jump out side my balcony..What a view.
I also made enough money today to cover my car repair (now i am just waiting for the part to come in..And the first early morning I can get from the dealer to fix it. I am there…..Well Then I will have to pray it all the way to Hilo 45 miles to the dealership. The part that is being replaced is the one that connects the battery to the engine called the inverter. All the dashboard lights are on and it could make it all the way or just stop running. I am opting for making it all the way and the repair man being Divinely efficient and organized and get the work done in less than 3 hours..perfectly.
I am slowly catching up with the material and am very grateful.
It sure is easier just having to focus on just healing and spiritual growth. Right now I keep sucking down blessed Prembaba water/lingam water and vibbutti.. The perfect tools to go thru spiritual growth with.
Thank you again for all the help you gave/are giving me. And group energy rocks.
The next day I was impressed to start the car up. To my delightful surprise none of the warning sensors were on. All I could think of was wow Prem Baba you are really good at working with energy. I am still not going to drive it till I go to the dealership. Not too much longer to hitch hike…..I can do this.
I took the hitchhiking in stride. Some days I could go in with my neighbor and some days I was on the road with my music and thumb out. Some days I had to walk a few miles. On those days I figured spirit wanted me to get some exercise. Besides the days were sunny and beautiful. I was walking along some of the loveliest scenery…the ocean….that now I could really take the time to admire and appreciate.
That was most of my month…..hitch hike or find a way to work….work…come home and relax. Not very exciting hugh?
I finally got my car part, had an appointment with the dealership 2 days later. The sensor lights remained off and my trip to the dealer was easy. They fixed the car in 2.8 hours, charging me $440.
The total repair for the car was $940. Far less than the $6,000 estimate. Granted I got a used part. Which was in my budget. Everything I asked Prem Baba for had happened. Miracles are Prem Baba.
I now had wheels again and did it feel like heaven.
I did mention that I had a roommate for the month. I was doing Ok and tolerating his singing and competing with my music for the first few weeks.. a few years ago he took some music lessons. All I can say was thank God for those music lessons for I could imagine what he sang like before. To my ears he wasn’t a Kenny Logins impersonator and was beginning to grate on my nerves. You know like someone running their fingernails over chalk board. And the man never went anywhere. I thought I was a home body…..And I am…..Except I go and work in my store everyday. I call my store my day home. He was always there at the apt…in his room coming out for air every now and then.
Finally the last week I kind of snapped just a bit…But I thought in a very calm way….I asked my temporary room mate to use his own computer….To stop singing over my music. If he didn’t like my music to wear his ear plugs..and to not sing when I was home. And that he needed to leave the next day for a few hours so I could have some real quite time at home. I have a small apartment. If I could not control the noise at my store the least I could do for myself is control; my home environment. I needed some peace somewhere. The home seemed a very logical place to start. I also let him know that he needed to be out on the last day of the month by 5:30. I really needed my space back. He was ….in his own way…..Trying to show who was dominate. And he lost for my name is on the lease.
It is finally the end of the month and I have my car back, my roommate is gone so I have my apt. back. I got most of my bills caught up. Granted I worked the whole month of March…and so far April. But the business came in and bills got taken care of. I still have my taxes to pay and see that being taken care of this month.
I look back and tell myself all this happened in only 2 months. Good thing I took it one day at a time.
I walked away from the mundane to focus on doing service work for a month and in the end the Divine took very good care of me. My landlord has calmed down and now can at least give me a smile every now and then. I noticed that carpet was put on the back wall where the drumming lessons are being given.
I do appreciate the effort and I see some compromise happening. If the drumming is just too much for me I make Friday an early day. I would rather loose 2 hours work than my mind. That compromise works well for me. I don’t mind going home early to hide and recharge in my cave/home…or go to the ocean…I am sure I can find somewhere else to go that will give me great joy and peace.
That’s it . I am pleased to say I am done writing….at least I think I am.
Thanks to everyone for all your encouragement to keep writing.
Thanks for reading.